Challenging Times Ahead

To those who have checked my blog every now and then..
I am sorry for not updating my blog.. no excuses..
Recently.. i am begining to feel more and more lonely and i need to voice out myself.. i will begin to blog again soonz... thank you for your patience..

The Countdown

40 days more till i finish my Division 2 nursing Course... I cant wait for it to finish then i can start to focus on building up my career and future!!

Throughout the time i have spent here, workin part-time in the chinese restaurant and studying, having problems living with my parents... I am very happy to have known a kind and good friend.. He is my Boss.. his name is Tim and he wants to show me the ropes of doing business from a small scale to a big scale.. he used to do business in China and now he wants to do it here in Australia...
I know it's totally different from i have been studying... Nursing Vs Business... What a joke.. Not that i don't like nursing.. It's not something that i want to forever... I will do it part-time for now and work on other stuff.. i'm still young and i want to achieve whatever i can when i still have youth on my side...
My parents would say i am immature but i don't care... because they are conservative...

Living with them has been very difficult as i am used to live by my own ways for 2 years++ in singapore during my army days...

Anyway, I'm planning to bring my dear dear, wan yee over to australia next year to live with me... I want to get married.. have a family.. and LIVE life to the fullest of my ability!!!

Back To School

School has started again... but this time i feel it's much more relax.. It's 3 days a week and the rest of the days i am usually working part time at the chinese restaurant "LING WAH" near my place (Hampton Park). School ends at the end of June and i am so looking forward to the end so i can graduate and see my love again!!

Have to keep saving $$ and that kinda makes me sad cuz i have to pay for everything now since i started working part time.. Dad & Mum says they want me to learn how to budget but i just feel that they are throwing everything to me at one go.. I agree with the point that i must learn budgeting.. but it's not like i don't know..

Worse of all, they are so particular with everything I do.. I seldom go out at night and when i do.. they make a big fuss of it.. and mind them.. i do call back and let them know where i am going so that they dont worry.. but i dont feel they appreciate it.. they think i must inform... they are so wrong.. it's a privilege...

Anyway, i re-apply for the ADSL internet connection again.. It's taking FOREVER just to have a PROPER internet service at home! I HATE DIAL UP!!! I am so pissed off with telstra!! GIVE ME MY ADSL!!!
When i have my ADSL up and running, it will be much easier for me to blog every now and then... Now i just have to find time to blog in my school library...

Coming Back

Coming back to melbourne again wasn't an easy feeling for me to cope with... The idea and feeling of leaving my love and everyone else was undescribable.

I miss Singapore so much.. The love, the relationships, the bonds, the lifestyle...

Oh my.. what am i going to do back in melbourne..

I find that my only purpose here is to study.. not live here at the current moment. Maybe in another 10 years time, i wouldnt mind coming back to stay with my family... but just not now... I am lonely and depressed everyday.. I got no one to share my everyday life with...

Hate time...

10 days has passed... 11 days more to go... I don't feel like going back.. I feel more connected to Singapore...

My life has more meaning when my dear dear is around me..
Her presence, Her face, Her eyes, Her voice, Her breath, Her Kisses, Her Hugs, Her touch, Her smiles, her frowns, Her Whispers....
Everything single little thing about her unleashes a new wave of energy in my soul...
I need her... i need her by my side..
but i am going.. going soon... sooner than i thought...
Someone.. someone please... please stall time...
I am feeling awful...